Saturday, May 19, 2012

June 25, 2010

I was cleaning out my Scentsy room the other day, and came across buried under some of my books a journal I started when I had the twins.  Of course the cleaning stopped and I sat down to read some of the entries. I have not shared a lot of my thoughts with the twins but I thought I would share a particular entry as it reminded me so much why I love being a mother. 

June 25, 2010

Adam is away to Moncton in charge of a bachelor party.  Greg and Karen are getting married in about one month.  Oh how fondly I remember my wedding.  Though it was not a perfect wedding, it was the day I married the man perfect for me.

Today I am overwhelmed with the love I have for my family.  I still struggle with attachement with my stepdaughter Jazzy, but I am hopeful it will come.

I look at Ruby and Charlotte and if I ask for a hug or kiss they will walk (yes girls you have started walking this past week and it is so cute.  Not just trying to walk, but rather walking everywhere) over and give me a big hug and kiss.  They are so affectionate and I am so easily affectionate toward them.  I was scared of that.  I was scared becaause I have a hard time letting people it, letting myself be loved and I was scared I would be the same way with my own precious children.

Tears run down my cheeks right now thinking how very blessed we were in how healthy and happy our little miracles are.  How one tiny little thing could have changed the outcome.  My heart aches for other moms of MoMo twins who had to endure the loss of one or both knowing there was nothing they could have done.  I look at my two beautiful little angels and it pains me to think of one of them not being with us, or only one of them surviving the NICU or how different my life would be.  Even on days where I a stretched so thin that I think I might snap in two, it is worth it because it is real, it is all happening, is is all beautiful and it is all my life.

Although I find liittle pleasure or joy in putting Charlotte back in her wagon screaming because we have to leave the playground, having her curl into my arms later on at home and hug me while saying her own version of "mama" erases and part of her tantrums.  Our sweet mostly gentle Ruby who just looks at Charlotte and then to me as if to ask "What is her problem" makes me wonder if it is any indication of the future personalities we will enjoy. 

Ruby you give the best kisses and make the cutest "pig" sounds and you melt my heart even more with your kind eyes and warm snuggles.  Charlotte my little trouble maker already I love your own word for book which sounds like duck-a-duck.  I love how much you love having us read you a story, and I am in awe of your strong spirit and determination already.

You girls and your father are the reason I breathe, you are my air and my light and I love you and though I look forward to when you can communicate what you want easier, please stop growing up so fast because Mommy loves her little girls.

Friday, November 04, 2011

FAMILY PHOTOS

We had a friend of our we are lucky to have take some family photos the other day.  Honestly I did not have a lot of expectations.  Not because of his ability but with three young children you just never know what you are going to get.  We knew we wanted to be outside and thankfully the weather cooperated with us considering it was the beginning of November in Eastern Canada!

Here are a few unedited shots until we decide what we love the most!



It was tough getting a family shot where we all were looking even OK.. though I do like this one

One of many great ones of Charlotte

Ruby oh my sweet gentle Ruby

Jazzy was a bit harder to get a natural shot she is such a poser!

Friday, September 02, 2011

Last Days of Summer




I wish my brain was in writing mode and full of wondering, nurturing, and thought provoking words.  The type of post which would make you want to grab a cup of coffee (if you drank it) and put your feet up and nod your head with understanding about how life is with children and a husband and being a Stay At Home Mom (with a home based Scentsy Business)... But it is not.. 
Instead however, it will be a recap of what I have been doing this summer with the said children and wonderful husband.  I seem to have many strengths and many weaknesses.. One of those weaknesses I have come to realize is my inability to keep my blog updated even for my family and truly for myself.
I think of all the cute things the kids have done this summer and said this summer and wonder if I can remember half of them and how terrible of a mother I am for not writing things down right after the moment of cuteness.... or moment of sincere love, but alas, once again I have not.  I will say though that this summer has been amazing!  Not only amazing in the amount of traveling and "camping" and day tripping we have managed to do either as a family and sometimes even alone, it has been amazing because of how much the girls have grown and how much fun they are at this stage.

So here are some summer fun photos... 
Please keep in mind these are all from an IPhone

The twins LOVING the Newly ReOpened Renovated Aquarium in St Andrews!

Both Girls REALLY wanted to touch the Giant Fish as they called them!

This the reaction each of the girls got after touching one of the Skates (look like Sting Rays) Charlotte Left was crazy excited and Ruby was seriously not sure what to think!

Adam and I get away alone twice a year normally for 2 nights each.. This year we went down to Old Orchard Beach and took in the sites and did some shopping for Adam and played some golf!  It was WONDERFUL!  What was not great about it - I did not take enough photos!

Adam got a good kick out of how much I do NOT like Ferris Wheels.. Seriously do not like them !  Somehow I still go on them!  Not quite romance in the air when I was nearly shaking!

Need I explain the sheer enjoyment?

Back to School Shopping (or in their case helping mommy get Scentsy organizing supplies!

Who doesn't enjoy lunch outside with friends?

Sometimes they like to pet ponies! 
Or Feed Lamas 
Charlotte has taken to sleeping in the closet - Though the last couple of mornings/naps they have been on the floor laying together with their faces almost touching!

They have mad climbing skills!
Jazzy is growing up fast! These are Adam's friends Kids from our cabin trip to Cap Pele!  It was sooo cute!

Cap Pele - 6 hours a day on the beach.. happy children.. no melt downs.. no naps it really was wonderful!


RUBY


CHARLOTTE

Irving Nature Park Walks

Trying out their new helmets!  I know not a clear photo but I love it!

Last but not least!  Who doesn't love washing Gnomes at Nanny and Gramps house with toothbrushes!




Saturday, July 30, 2011

So, We Went CAMPING

There are many things I thought about wanting to do with my family long before I even had a family.  I knew I wanted to make memories doing things together as a family and regardless of how much work and how much stress it could possibly be, I still wanted to do them.  Camping of course was on that list.  Do not get me wrong, I LOVE CAMPING!  I love the smell of a campfire, and the sound of the zipper from the tent zipping and unzipping!  I love the sticky mess marshmellows can make and the ice cold water you would use to try to get the sticky mess off.  Above all, I love the freedom children can have to run around without a care in the world, getting dirty, getting wet, but most of all having fun!

We went camping in Mactaquac and I must say that the camp ground was very children friendly and their facilities were excellent for someone in a tent.  Our disturbingly loud and foul neighbours were not a welcomed addition to the first night but honestly it poured buckets on us the first night so I am not sure if I would have gotten many more hours of sleep worrying if I was going to wake up with the children soaked.
We decided that even though the twins are in their big girl beds they would still sleep in their playpens inside the tent which was the best decision we could have made.

The trip was certainly not all it planned out to be.  My in Laws were along for the ride and my Brother who is home for two week break from the OneAsia Professional Golf tour, along with my mother came up for supper and the night with hopes of us all golfing in the morning.  The Heavens which just continued to open on us sent my mother and brother packing home at 730 in the morning and the rest of us to the mall in Fredericton to run the three girls around until the rain hopefully stopped.  Thankfully it did and we were able to enjoy a lovely afternoon and evening around the camp fire!

We made memories - the twins had a great time chasing after Jazzy and learning to throw a frisbee with minimal damage to the local trees and foreheads!  Was it the best camping trip I have ever been on?  Perhaps not, but it was the first one with my wee ones and even if they won't remember stinking up the tent with their farting all night from the mixture of marshmellows and camping food,  the rest of us will and I am thankful for even just the one day of sunshine as it allowed us to create a lifetime of little memories!

The twins getting set to partake of some camping food! Charlotte (L) Ruby (R)

I REALLY wish I could have known what they were talking about.. Ruby on the left!

PIGGY and ELEPHANT just HAD to experience camping along with the twins!  They sleep with these little Scentsy Buddies and we were NOT leaving them home!

Throwing Rocks in the River is a favourite of my children - I think of any children!

Just because I think it is a cute photo of the twins!  I could not begin to tell you which one is which.

Charlotte digging for better rocks

Ruby wondering why Mommy has the camera in her face while trying to pick up rocks

Jazzy is extremely hard to get a good photo of!  If she knows you have the camera it is the ultimate cheese crazy person smile with the hand on the hip.  I surprised her with this one and it is the best I have!

The long walk back from the river to the playground and camp site.  Next time we go we would for sure stay closer to the playground and water.  We had a beautiful site with a cute brook running right along it, but too far from the river for my little ones!

Sunday, July 24, 2011

OH CHARLOTTE

Because I plan to become more consistent with my blog posts I really wanted to make sure to blog about the cute and fun and unique things my children do as a way to record for my blog book later on.

So today was a great one in my books.  Adam and I are thankfully on the same page when it comes to parenting and Time Outs have become a useful tool for us with the twins.  However, today I think it lost a little bit of its effectiveness this is how it went down.

Mommy sitting putting in a Scentsy Order
Charlotte and Ruby eating popcorn and watching Tangled
Charlotte comes over to Mommy
"Mommy, I needs a time out"

Mommy "Why Charlotte"

Charlotte "I going hit Ruby"

Mommy "thank you for telling me"

Charlotte then proceeds to put herself in a time out in the time out chair for thinking about hitting Ruby and not actually hitting her.  I tried to explain to her that she did not need to go in a time out for something she did not do, and thanked her for being honest about wanting to hit Ruby.

Inside I was dying of laughter but the moment was too precious to ruin with a laugh!

Oh the fun things our children do at the young age of 2

Monday, July 18, 2011

HARRY POTTER

Saturday night Adam and I went to see how it all ends (at least in Movie form) of Harry Potter.  I can only say it was amazing and heart felt and my favourite part of the book was done so absolutely beautiful that I was crying plenty of tears!  There were a couple change ups that perhaps as a HUGE fan of the books I was not a huge fan of them onscreen but after much discussion on the way home with my husband we both agreed that it really would have been difficult to pull off exactly how it happens in the book - on screen.  I won't say what they are for those who have not read the books or seen the final movie yet.
If you are going - bring kleenex for sure!

In other Harry Potter related news because I am sure I'm the only one who has not shared this.. but well um at least he is not a teenager so I can say is anyone else's mind blown away by this!  Neville LongBottom you have come a long way in the books and in real life!! (Matthew Lewis is the actors name)




Saturday, July 16, 2011

THE VOW

I get teary eyed every time I even watch this trailer.. I am a sucker for a sweet romantic feel good movie!